01 Feb
Hi everyone!
My name is Jean Cheng and I am a new volunteer writer for OXYGEN. =) Some background information on myself, I have recently graduated from the University of Melbourne with two majors in Psychology and Media Communications, but am going back to continue my Honours in Psychology. Besides that I also enjoy reading, singing, dancing, watching TV, eating, … and I think that’s more information than what Daniel requested for.
On a more serious side, I volunteered to write for OXYGEN because I want to spend more time reflecting on scriptures and deepen my walk with Christ. I also hope that I can encourage you in your spiritual journey through my reflections and sharings.
Thanks everyone for giving me a chance to be a part of this ministry! I will do my best. =)
God bless,
Jean
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2 Samuel 11:1-4a
The following spring, at the time of the year when kings usually go to war, David sent out Joab with his officers and the Israelite army; they defeated the Ammonities and besieged the city of Rabbah. But David himself stayed in Jerusalem. One day, late in the afternoon, David got up from his nap and went to the palace roof. As he walked around up there, he saw a woman taking a bath in her house. She was very beautiful. So he sent a messenger to find out who she was, and learned that she was Bathsheba, the daughter of Eliam and the wife of Uriah the Hittite. David sent messengers to get her; they brought her to him and he made love to her.
Afterward she discovered that she was pregnant and sent a message to David to tell him. David then sent a message to Joab: “Send me Uriah the Hittite.” So Joab sent him to David. When Uriah arrived, David asked him if Joab and the troops were well, and how the fighting was going. Then he said to Uriah, “Go on home and rest a while.” Uriah left, and David had a present sent to his home. But Uriah did not go home; instead he slept at the palace gate with the king’s guards. David was told that Uriah had not gone home.
The next day, David invited him to supper and got him drunk. But again that night Uriah did not go home; instead he slept on his blanket in the palace guardroom. The next morning David wrote a letter to Joab and sent it by Uriah. He wrote: “Put Uriah in the front line, where the fighting is heaviest, then retreat and let him be killed.” So while Joab was besieging the city, he sent Uriah to a place where he knew the enemy was strong. The enemy troops came out of the city and ought Joab’s forces; some of David’s officers were killed, and so was Uriah.
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Mark 4:26-34
Jesus went on to say, “The Kingdom of God is like this. A man scatters seed in his field. He sleeps at night, is up and about during the day, and all the while the seeds are sprouting and growing. Yet he does not know how it happens. The soil itself makes the plants grow and bear fruit; first the tender stalk appears, then the head, and finally the head full of grain. When the grain is ripe, the man starts cutting it with his sickle, because harvest time has come.
“What shall we say the Kingdom of God is like?” asked Jesus. “What parable shall we use to explain it? It is like this. A man takes a mustard seed, the smallest seed in the world, and plants it in the ground. After a while it grows up and becomes the biggest of all plants. It puts out such large branches that the birds come and make their nests in its shade.”
Jesus preached his message to the people, using many other parables like these; he told them as much as they could understand. He would not speak to them without using parables, but when he was along with his disciples, he would explain everything to them.
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In the first reading, we see that David has sinned when he committed adultery. However, instead of repenting, he committed a greater sin when he had Uriah, a righteous man, killed. This warns us of what can happen when we fail to repent: we can end up committing greater sins.
While we may end up committing greater sins for the purpose of covering up our previous sins, there may be another reason to us sinning further. In psychology, we learn that human beings have a need to seek consistency in their self-image. What this means is that we want to know who we are and we will tend to do things to confirm our view of who we think we are. For example, ‘messy children’ will tend to be messy because they have accepted this as their self-image.
What is the implication of this theory? If we sin and fail to repent, we can easily accept ourselves as “bad” and “condemned” and give up on the hope that we can change. We retain a negative self-image and continue – consciously or subconsciously – to commit more sins to sustain this image of ourselves. However, if we repent of our sins and ask God to help us change, we not only allow our slates to be cleansed by God but we are also refusing any negative self-images of ourselves to form or be perpetuated.
While some of us may struggle with repenting, I think many of us may struggle more with finding ourselves sinning despite our prayer life. Sinning after we have repented/prayed can make us feel disheartened and we may be tempted to lose the hope of ever becoming better individuals.
Personally, I struggle a lot with my prayer life because even after I pray, I continue to find myself committing the same sins. This frustrates me, makes me doubt the power of prayers and even makes me wonder if God truly exists.
Yet, when I look back on my life and recall the day I decided to make time for daily prayer (or at least, I try my best to), I realize that I have grown: I am committing fewer of my old sins and moving away from my old habits. Ironically, while I am moving away from old sins and habits, I am becoming increasingly aware of other sins and bad habits. As such, I can never stop repenting and asking for Jesus’ mercy and grace.
Perhaps the journey of repentance and prayer is never ending for Jesus wants to make us like Him (1 John 3:2). Instead of complaining about the never-ending list of sins I need to repent of, I must learn to thank God for consistently revealing my weaknesses to me so that I keep growing in His image.
If you are feeling impatient or upset that your prayer life seems to have stagnated, do not lose hope but hold on to Jesus’ promise in today’s Gospel: Even with faith as small as a mustard seed, we can become Jesus’ most outstanding disciples. Whether or not we are aware, we are already growing and building our foundations to become completely like Christ.
(Today’s OXYGEN by Jean Cheng)
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Prayer:
Dear Lord, we pray that you will help us to be patient with our growth and to hold on to your promise that we will become completely like you.
Give thanks to the Lord for: Calling us His precious children, no matter how small our faith is.
Upcoming Readings:
Sat, 02 Feb – Malachi 3:1-4; Hebrews 2:14-18; Luke 2:22-40; Feast of the Presentation of the Lord
Sun, 03 Feb – Zephaniah 2:3, 3:12-13; 1 Corinthians 1:26-31; Matthew 5:1-12a; Fourth Sunday in Ordinary Time
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